I ate it slowly and really enjoyed some quiet moments with my tea and a new book. It was truly delightful. A little while later, I walked into the kitchen and spied some cookies I'd made for the kids in the cookie jar. well, I felt like I HAD to have one. Errrr, two.
Hey! They were organic at least.
Then, at my sister's house later, I had a bit of the shepherd's pie she had made for dinner last night, which was delicious incidentally. After eating that, I felt certain that I would have no need for lunch. A little while later at home, I went into the kitchen and had some left over corned beef and cabbage.
Hmmmm. Just not doing so well. Nevermind this is the THIRD meal I've had from this! Yesterday morning I made my own corned beef hash.
Last night for dinner I had two slices of White Pizza from a local pizza joint.
I think part of the problem is I'm feeling a little down. My husband has taken on the challenge of getting his MBA. We already don't get to see him very much because he works long hours. Now when he's home, he's very, very busy and it's going to be like that for at least the next two years. I want him to get his MBA and I support him wholeheartedly. It's something he's wanted to do for a really long time. It's just a tough adjustment and we're still trying to hit our stride with it. In the meantime, I'm just finishing up my 6th week of recovery after my hysterectomy, and have a lot of work ahead of me once I'm cleared by the doctor to do it. It doesn't take much walking around my house to make me feel overwhelmed by the scale of the task at hand. Every single room is a mess! Sometimes I feel like putting our most precious things in the car, walking out the front door and never looking back! It's that bad. I know that by doing a little bit at a time it will get done but as I've seen with my weight loss attempts, knowing and doing are two different things.
Sorry that this post is such a downer but I'm just trying to keep it real and honest. Eating right is not hard but making up your mind and totally committing to it seems to be very difficult for me right now. I'm not giving up though. Just venting my frustration about my current lack of willpower.
I WILL be back tomorrow. This blog is a blessing! I don't know what I'd do without a place to vent.
7 comments:
Hang in there, Evie! You're right, eating right is NOT easy! I struggle with it, too...we all do, I think. When I was on Weight Watchers, I found myself eating a lot of low-point, but highly-processed foods. It's tough for me to eat well, but not too much. It's also more work and more expensive. I'm with ya, I cannot resist cookies, either! :) You'll get your groove back!
Bridget,
Thanks for the encouragement! I thank my lucky stars that I'm a terrible baker. If I were good at it, I'd have cake every day many times and that just wouldn't be good! It's a serious weakness.
It IS more work and it IS more expensive, especially right now. Food prices have gone INSANE. Sometimes it feels like a conspiracy!
Thanks again for the pep talk! You're the best!
evie
Evie, I honestly don't think you ate that badly. You do have a lot going on at the moment, but it won't be forever. You can do this! And I think you are doing great!
Dude, you and I need to team up and be each other's food buddies. I eat like crap all the time but can't seem to motivate myself not to. Maybe with a buddy we can conquer this eating together.
carri,
You're so sweet! Thank you very much for saying that.
:)
Evie
Beth,
I think that would be great. Since we're always together anyway, I think it could work. We just have to stick to it!
:)
Hi Sweetie.
I'm sorry you're having such a tough time this last week.
(and previously with surgery and Sean being gone so much.)
Try to remember to do things that you WANT to do! If you truly want to have cake for breakfast - just for today, this moment - then do so. If you feel like you need a break from keeping track for a few days, then do that.
I'm not saying to give up, what I'm saying is MAKING yourself do something that feels like drudgery or that you're doing and resenting isn't going to help you to feel better, you know?
Please be kind to yourself, and do that however it truly feels best for you.
xxoo
Steph
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