Saturday, June 28, 2008

Within POints but eating crap

I don't think the WW points system intended people like me to eat their day's points value in fun-size Baby Ruths. Call me crazy but, I'm thinking they meant for us to eat healthful things like fruits, veggies, and the like. Yesterday began with a container of Stonyfield Whole Milk Strawberry yogurt. Freaking delicious. I just can't eat the low-fat stuff. It tastes like ass. Not that I would actually have any idea what that is like...Moving on. For lunch, I had three ham roll-ups which is basically a slice of ham, a tsp of mayo all rolled up in a lettuce leaf because I'm still avoiding gluten. It was quite good although I think iceberg is a better rolling lettuce than say, romaine. Just my personal opinion on that one. That afternoon, I ate 3 fun-size Baby Ruth's and had 2 Cokes!!! People, I had gone for YEARS without buying Coke at the store but for some reason, this week, I bought them and drank two yesterday. Sheesh!!

Okay y'all. Here is the topper. For dinner we had MCDonalds because I was too lazy to get in the kitchen and cook anything. I pulled myself back a bit and didn't order my usual super-huge ass busting Filet'oFish combo and instead ordered a regular Cheeseburger and small fries. Yes, I know I ate gluten by eating a burger. Amazingly, it didn't bother me so now, I'm thinking I'm just plain crazy. And big. And that's why I feel yucky, because I'm a crazy, big, hypochondriac. Anyway, I only went over my daily points by 1. can you believe that??? Insanity.

This morning, I got on the scale and I'm at an even 200 lbs. It's kind of sad but I was happy to see it on the scale. A few months ago, I was 192. Throw in a hysterectomy and a 6 week recovery and BOOM up to 203. But now, things on are the way back down and that feels good. I really think cutting out gluten products has helped me drop the weight. I'm not cutting it out completely but I am still going to try and create meals that don't include it if I can. Now, we're going out of town on Wednesday so, on the road it's harder to avoid but I will do my best. Also from Wed-Sun you may not see any posts from me because I don't know that I will have access to the internet. No, we're not traveling to some backwoods cabin but since we're visiting family I don't feel right asking to use their computer all the time, just because I need to speak to my people. LOL

Today we slept until 10:30, how glorious is that? Thank god my kids are at an age where they sleep past the crack of dawn and we can all be slackers together on the weekend. Families that sleep together...wait. Eww. Nope, that isn't right. Well, you catch my drift.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Yesterday wasn't as bad as I thought

Quick update. For those of you doing Weight Watchers, my daily points value is 25 and when I wrote my post last night, I hadn't finished my log for the day so this morning, I finished it up and was quite surprised by what I saw. With all the crazy stuff I ate, I thought for sure I'd gone over my allowance but in fact, I was .5 a point under. Insane, isn't it???

Just had to post that here. PLUS, I'm down two pounds. Still over 200 (ewww) but on the way down at least. Today has started out well with cottage cheese and fruit for breakfast and a handful of raw almonds. Looking forward to the rest of the day!

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

First Day In

So today was my first day "back". As I said in my post yesterday, I'm trying to stay away from gluten and wheat, which was a bit more of a struggle than I thought but I did it. All I had for breakfast this morning was a small sausage patty I had cooked yesterday. It was a crazy morning as I had to get the boys up and dressed and ready to play gold with my dad at 9:30. That might not sound like much but my boys can SLEEP and my 6 year old is especially hard to wake up. Anyway, by the time they were out the door, I wasn't far behind and on my way to the grocery store. What the hell, people? I planned to spend $60. Yes, I know that was a freaking ridiculous idea to begin with but still! That was my goal. Well, apparently I needed more than I thought and then add $4.99 to my total to buy a pie for the troops on the 4th of July and I spent $152. Good Lord. That was a credit card purchase, let me tell you. Anyway, I digress.

After the grocery store, I met some friends for lunch at a mexican restaurant. I barely ate any of it because we were so busy gabbing so of course I had to come home and eat. Still avoiding gluten, I chose sour cream and onion chips and 1/2 a Cadbury bar. Mmmm. Doesn't that sound healthy? FF to dinner, I prepared baby back ribs in the oven which were to die for. I would have used the grill but it broke while it was on a couple of months ago and the fire dept came and yada yada yada, we can't use it anymore. I had a small green salad with a Ginger dressing and one small new potato roasted in the oven. I only ate four ribs. If you want to know the secret to fall off the bone ribs, it's cooking them for a couple of hours in the oven at 300 degrees, tightly wrapped in aluminum foil. Then top them with your fave BBQ sauce and put them back in the oven at 400 degrees for about 20 minutes. They are Goooood.

All in all, it wasn't a TERRIBLE day. It could have been better and I used up some of my extra points but I actually do feel like I'm back on track. I'm better prepared and ready to face tomorrow and make healthy choices. Tomorrow will be MUCH different!

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Giving it another go!

After an extended absence I'm back to give this thing another shot. The last few months have been busy and stressful but I've found a happy balance and am ready to meet my weight challenges head-on. My current weight is 203. Yikes. Seriously? Did I just type that number? On a 5'3" person, that's substantial. So far, I've been very lucky in that my blood pressure is great and I haven't eaten my way into diabetes. Yet. I'm feeling confused about which approach to eating I should take. It seems that no matter which path I choose to take, I have the uncanny ability to find out how to get fatter on it. I know that's totally my fault and not the diet's.

Two weeks ago, I signed back up with Weight Watchers online and kept up with my journal for two days. Stellar. My plan is to utilize the WW online journaling tool along with whatever mode of eating I settle on.

In regards to may way of eating, I'm still a believer in the Will Clower approach, all things in moderation and I'm only going to add one small change to it. Lately, I've been thinking that I may have an allergy or intolerance for wheat. I don't think I have celiac disease but I do feel yucky when I eat wheat products. For now, I'm going to go gluten/wheat free along with eating healthful whole foods in moderation. For example, at breakfast I will have one egg, a slice of all natural/nitrate free bacon, and some berries. For lunch, a sauteed chicken breast served with brussel sprouts simmered in chicken broth and then a piece of chocolate for an ender. Dinner may be Salmon cooked on the grill, served with one new potato and steamed haricots verts with some fresh fruit for dessert. I'm going to try eating this way for 60 days and see how I feel then. Any weight loss would be an added benefit.

Obviously, another thing I have GOT to do is amp up my activity level. Right now, much of my day is sedentary, sitting in front of the TV or computer. I get up to eat, pee, or do some housework. If you've ever seen my house though, you know I'm slacking on the last one. My goal at first is going to be to get up and move at a brisk pace for 20 minutes a day. Each week, I'm going to add 5-10 minutes, and then also begin adding weight training. We'll see how this goes.

Instead of taking photos of every meal, I'm going to pick one a day and more than likely it will be breakfast or lunch. Mostly because the lighting in my house is terrible and I hate the way pictures look when I take them indoors at night.

So, that's where I am for now. I'm still here and still heavy. Care to watch me wander down the long, slow, road to weight loss success? 'Cause that's where I'm heading. I'm tired of being tired, tired of not feeling cute, tired of not wanting my picture taken with my family. Something in my life has got to change and I'm the only one who can do that.

I hope someone out there is reading and I hope you will accompany me on this journey!