Yesterday's Eats

Began with a good breakfast. I had an egg "fried" in Pam Cooking Spray and an English Muffin topped with a lite garden vegetable cream cheese. Along with that I had a small glass of orange juice which provided me an unpleasant surprise - pulp. Ewwww. I really don't like a drink that has "stuff" in it. That really freaks me out for some reason! Anyway, it was a nice breakfast and it felt like a good start to the day.



For lunch, there was leftover mushroom soup in the fridge so I had a small bowl of that with a small salad, topped with a few green olives and some ranch dressing. Bacon bits finished that off and it, too was delicious!



In the afternoon, I hit a major bump in the road. My PMS was in maximum overdrive and I had a colossal meltdown. It was like the PMS perfect storm because certain events aligned and washed over me in a way that left me defenseless. Thankfully though, I just cried it out instead of eating my way through it. It was a rough time but it felt like a win because I didn't try to apply food as the salve to my emotional wounds. By the time dinner rolled around though, I was completely exhausted and just couldn't get off my duff and come up with a plan for dinner. Sean picked up something for me on his way home and, although it wasn't great, it could have been worse! I had a Chick-fil-a sandwich, fries, and an unsweetened tea. Not great, but not horrible.



It was a hard day in the end, and I was mentally spent, but I felt like the victor in the battle which was important. I'm having surgery in a couple of weeks and won't be able to work out or even clean house for up to 8 weeks and it's vital that I get a grip on emotional eating before that gets here. Otherwise my weight situation could be pretty bad by the time my recovery period is up. Keep your fingers crossed!

Ouch!

Got on the scale today, oh boy....(I'm hearing the Beatles in my head) It wasn't a pretty number I saw glaring up at me like the lights on the Vegas strip but it's where I am and where the journey to a healthier me begins. 198. Whew, I said it!

I went downstairs and enjoyed few quiet moments to myself before the kids were up and running around the house like the lunatics they are. After remembering that there were croissants in the bread drawer, I turned on the oven and warmed one up to a beautiful golden brown. Served alongside a small glass of whole milk, it made for a lovely simple breakfast.



For lunch I had settled on making homemade mushroom soup - again. Can't help it! It's my all-time favorite soup. I'd like to introduce you to someone very special to me. They're such a huge help to me and have been a part of my life for about 8 years.


It's my handy dandy Pampered Chef food chopper! Man, I love this thing. It chops onions, nuts, candy, you name it! And, in no time it takes a carton of mushrooms from whole to this:



Which means it takes even less time for me to make and eat this bowl of gloriousness:



Guess what? I'm having it again tomorrow with a salad! I can't wait!

Dinner was also delicious, though there aren't any photos. Sean and I split a rib eye steak which was served with french green beans and mashed yukon gold potatoes. Yum-EEE. For dessert I chewed two pieces of Orbitz spearmint gum. It helps my digestive system. At least I think it does.

All in all, today felt like a great day. The boys and I got out and played tennis with our neighbor and that was awesome. She's in her late 60's and had me running all over the court. I wish we could do that more often!

I'm starting my way back to healthy slowly. It's hard to do it cold turkey so I'm feeling good about this approach. Tomorrow is going to be another good day, I can feel it!

Weekend Grub

This weekend was not one of good eats. Sporadic eats would be more like it! On Friday, I got up and skipped breakfast. Then by lunchtime, the boys wanted pizza so I ordered some from a delivery place. I ate three pieces!! I was really full after that. Shocking isn't it? LOL Friday night we watched the movie, "Transformers", which totally rocked by the way, and I popped some popcorn on the stove. That along with a can of Coke was my dinner. Woo-hoo.

Saturday was much the same. I stopped and got a biscuit and a sweet tea then skipped lunch. Dinner was a small cup of homemade Chex mix. Geez, I knew it was bad but it looks even worse written out!!

Today, was full of hustle and bustle. We were busy taking down decorations, cleaning the boys' room, cleaning out the inside of my car, putting things in our new storage facility and eating was low on the priority list. Skipped breakfast, had a ham sandwich for lunch and then we went out for dinner and I got fish and chips. God, I ate so much at dinner that I'm so uncomfortable.

Tomorrow, I'm getting on the scale for the first time in a while and I'm not looking forward to what it says. But, no matter what the number, I won't let it discourage me. I'm going to take each day one at a time and know that everything's going to be ok. When I put pressure on myself to succeed, I fail. No pressure here. Just living life. Eating good food and getting active. Those are my first steps on the path to healthy living. Stay tuned for tomorrow when I should be back to taking photos of meals!

Today's Eats

Today started out quite well with an egg and two slices of whole wheat toast with a bit of butter and cherry preserves.



It held me over until early afternoon where I had a steaming hot bowl of split pea with ham soup.



This also was great and I was feeling good until - dun dun dun (ominous music sounds). We had a playdate with one of Ryan's friends and he drove me to the very brink of insanity. Thank god there isn't a McDonald's that delivers because I would have really been in trouble! Emotional eating is a big problem for me. I know it and can feel when it's happening but as yet haven't mustered up the courage to stop myself from binging (sp?) when I'm upset. He was here for 2 and half hours and I really did some damage. Leftover mashed potatoes, chocolate, mixed nuts. Random things that I could quickly shove in my mouth to assuage the emotional battle I was feeling in my chest.

Oh how I love these....


As a result, I'm not feeling all that hungry for dinner and will probably not eat again until the morning, at which time I will pick myself up, dust myself off, and start with a clean slate. Whew. I sure am glad I didn't make any resolutions. They would have already been out the window!

Happy New Year!

Looking forward to getting my food on in 2008! I promised my husband a lap dance for Christmas '08 so I've got to get to work on shedding the pounds.

Happy New Year and Best Wishes to everyone!